"The right person will come someday."

You left once, you might leave again,

I took my breath away, deeply sighed,

I keep waiting and waiting,

Waiting for you to come near,

But, you repay back with nothing~

Loneliness, is a worst gift from you,

I got slapped by reality, for many times,

'Cause never be able to call you as mine,

I let myself getting hurt,

That I thought I deserved on it,

Nobody even cares,

Nobody even noticed,

Why am I such a fool?

"The right person will come someday."

I wonder if it was a truth,

My heart was torn apart,

I wonder if I got that chance,

To meet that someone,

Whom is able to repair my broken side back to usual~

Fall leaves, like a flow of my tears~

Drift away through an empty mind,

A smile on my face, turns frown,

I wonder where you are,

Are you doing well?

A non-stop question, keep flooding inside me~

I could see their happiness with their loved one,

But I am not,

I could see their smile for their loved one,

But I don't have any,

I could see their sincere love towards their loved one,

But my love was not been answered yet~

'Cause my heart start to breaks into pieces, day by day,

But you never care,

Fall leaves, like a flow of my tears, 

Showing you a value of my love, 

Only for you, only you~

It's hard, it's too hard,

Nobody understand, and nobody could,

"I'm sorry", that's the only words I recite everyday,

With a full of my guilty heart,

Lonely me~

...'Cause a boy like you, rarely to be found.

Dear, 김정재,

It's been 28 months already, since we first met in RPw,

We still contact to each others until now,

whether in RP acc, but for now we able to contact each other in our real fb account,

I feel so lucky, when you added me using your real acc on my rp fb account~

It was really important for me, since you're so precious in my life~

We met because of art, and we become more closer when we decided to create an art paged named "Art Soul",

Plus , you're being my appa in rpw , and I being one of your daughter, annoying daughter~ *giggles*

You always come in a right time whenever I had problem, 

You're always be here when I need someone to talk to,

You're really friendly and was kind to everyone,

You're being my bestfriend and my best appa ever! 

You gave me a nickname ( Mulgogi ) Hahhaa, so everytime I saw fish, I didn't call it as fish but I call it as 'mulgogi', and deeply said in my heart that, "Nahh that's me" *laugh*

Even in our real acc, I love to call you my "appa" but you didn't allowed me since you said you will feel old when I called you like that~ Hahaha but I love it when I called you "appa" :')

I never thought I would have a crush on you,

I noticed it when you told me that you had a crush on someone,

I'm search for that lucky girl, excitedly,

Then a weird feeling comes,

I don't know why did I feel jealous,

Nahhhh I lost my mind on that time, my heart kinda weird >//<

But still now,

You're my longest crush I ever had,

Then , I start again making some poem,

A poem that being inspired by you,

I never thought you would stalk on it, 

and found out plus read all of my poem that I dedicated special for you,
Asdfghjkl >>///<<

On a white day, 2013, 

You told me that you already know about my feeling and you said sorry,

You thought that I'm being hurt by you,

You tell me that I'm your bestfriend, and same like your crush too,

I don't know what should I feel~

It seems like I can't get rid of you,

Even I try to ignored you and leave, by deactived my acc,

I miss you so badly, my heart need you so much~
I start make a conversation with you again,

Then, on December, 2013, 

I make a confession official video for you,

I got no response from you,

But it's alright since I make confession before it too late,

Yeah well better late than never, right?

I don't want to regret anything soon :)

I accept all of your decision,

But there's something that I couldn't be able to forget you, nor move on,

So, I decided to let you stay in my heart since before,

Until now you'll never been replaced,

You're a prince in my heart,

I love you so much, Jae~

I created a page that I dedicated for you, 

" 아란's 물고기"

and I had no idea where did you found it XD You make that page as your "workplace" in your facebook, makes me smile crazily that time~ *giggles*

It took 7-8 months for you to "like" that page hahaha~~

On that page, I write down a diary, that I dedicated for you,

It seems really annoying right? 

But whenever you commented on my post there,

I goes crazy ahahaha hyper happy on that time~

On January 2014, I got shocked when I found out you involve in the accident >>//<< 

I'm so worried ><

On that time, I realized something, that I was useless,

Couldn't be able to help you, heal you, treat you well since we're in a different country~

<///////////3

I keep talking with you through your fb, twitter, and SNS,

I stalk your twitter, 

and I saw this post , but you write it in hangul, so I ask some korean friend to translate it for me,

and it goes like this,

"I'm sorry but I'm not easy to meet, don't you know? What I'm talk to you now is may be make you sad, If you sad, I'm sad too.. Sorry.. I didn't want to make you sad.. Say "goodbye" is not mean "the end".. and I want to you happy always."

Whenever your name was popped out in my twitter not facebook,

I'll be really excited, extremely excited !! I feel so happy^^ hahaa~

A-and, you surprising me with something,

You make a plan with your crush , 

You makes a video for me,

and that video's background voice is your voice?

Cause it seems "yes"~

 I feel so grateful and thanks you for make that video for me :)
At the end of that video, you put your selca with your mom *-*

Your mom was really pretty and you looks so handsome there, 

You looks liks an anime, with your blue hair (?) Hahaha~

I'm sorry for still loving you,

I don't why I still can't be able to move on,

You're not even be able for me to forget,

...Cause a boy like you, rarely to be found,

You stole my heart~

Many people will called me as "pathetic" , but I don't care at all,

Never give up on the things you really want,

All I want is you, want talk with you,

So yeah ^^v 

You will always be in my prayer,

I pray for your happiness, hope you could having a greatest happiness ever~

Thanks for all the happiness you gave me, 김정재.,

I love you and will always be,

Thank you very much,

I miss you...

Sincerely,

From your only mulgogi,

-YuyieHanna-

Left a traces called 'scar'

Walking forward , step by step,

Even my feet, feel so weak to stand,

With a heavy-hearted,

I accept my chosen path, 

and be patience~

Don't leave me, don't let me go,

Stay with me, near with me,

This tears couldn't be handle anymore,

A pain inside my heart,

Ripped me, too deeply~

I'm no longer exist,

Feel not worth it, to stay here,

I'm about to cry, but I hold it,

People comes, and leave,

Left a traces called 'scar'~

Tomorrow? It's just "another" day.......

Tomorrow is the day,

The day that I've been waiting for a long time already,

Even though it wasn't feel very special to everyone,

But for me, it's really meaningful,

'cause tomorrow is my birthday~

I'm pretty sure that nobody will remember it,

Nobody will ever gives me a birthday wishes,

and it's alright, and it's okay,

'Cause that's not the one that I wishes for~

I didn't ask too much,

I didn't put a high hopes,

But there's my only one wishes, 

Only that one person could fulfill my wish~

But I know,

It's impossible,

Since he start to make a distance between us,

He's not even approaching me anymore,

He seems happy without me,

He gain happiness without me,

and I'm really grateful,

Could seeing him smile,

Could seeing him happy~

I don't care if I had to waste my tears,

I don't care how hurt my heart was,

As long as there's a smile on his lips,

I could bear it,

I could hold this pain, alone~

Dear 김정재, 

I don't know whether you want to end our friendship or not,

Cause it seems "yes",

It is because I'm pretend to ignoring you,

And you're didn't want to approaching me?

I'm sorry,

That's the only things that I could do,

Since I'm not the only one who could gives you happiness,

I'm just one of your "fans"~

It's alright, I'll be fine,

B-but, there's only one wish that I wish you could fulfill it for me,

On my tomorrow's birthday,

Would you do that?
Saying "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" to me?

Just that simple wishes~

:'(

I'm sorry,
I didn't mean to force you though,

 I can't help it,

B-but, I n-need y-you,

S-seriously~

I need you, 김정재 !!! :'(

I'm sorry, 

I shouldn't ask that kind of request,

I'm too stupid!!

I'm sorry, 김정재 ,

Don't mind me,

I'll be alright,

Cause tomorrow,

Just another day,

Nothing special~~

Trapped on LOVE~

One days, two days, three days,

I'm counting the days,

You're still disappearing,

Let this tears flows,

As I wish you near~

That bridge,

You stop my step to go through it,

With a deep sight,

I asked myself,

"What can I do anymore?"

I accept it sincerely~

Try to forget,

Refreshing my mind,

Forgetting all of the things,

That reminds me of you,

But it's hard, 'cause I'm still trapped,

Trapped on a cage called "LOVE"~

Will you hold my hands,

and never let me go?

Will you whisper, "I'm here for you"

and set me free?

Will you tore this mask of deception,

and put a sincere smile on me?

It remains still,

Destiny between me and you,

Not gonna be changed~

Strange Sight

Looking through his eyes,

Our eyes has met,

I gaze softly,

and turns my views,

as I gasp for air, silently~

He had such a quiet eyes,

Layered with a thousand meaning,

There's something he couldn't express,

I hope it slowly been revealed~

Stymied in step,

Everytime those strange sight,

Stare at me~