You're my B.A.P buddy~

I have no idea what should I say right now,

You still in operation room, and I'm still here, waiting for you to wake up,

I know you will fighting on it~

I'm crying when remember what I've done to you, but my jealousy makes me blind,

I hurt you, I'm the reason why I makes you crying,

I know there's a reason behind it, but ''that'' moment, makes me start stop talking with you~

I feel hurt seeing you with other girl~ I just can stalk you~ I just can crying alone~

No one can I talk about~ I'm afraid I will pissed them off~ 

I'm hiding a tears, especially from my mom~

I'm crying every night, why this kind of situation must happen between us~

I didn't even attack you, did I?? Or you mean, attack you through all my FB post??

I'm so selfish~ I've no idea, is there any still enough time for me, to say ''SORRY''?

Please wake up~

I'm so sorry, I can't able to stop this feeling~

You're my last love, and I won't never fall in love again, if its wasn't you~

I won't never attack you again, I just want to be your buddy back~

Even........................ You might not accept me any longer yet, as your buddy~

Your happiness............ I wish you got it as soon as possible~

I ..................................... L.O.V.E YOU...........

You ask me to stop blaming myself,
If you're not wake up, I will keep blaming myself~
B.A.P............ one shot, one chance! 

I'm a bad friend for you~

I've never thought this kind of situation will hitted me, until makes me drowning in sadness~ Last year, I met with a lot of kind friend, we build tight friendship~ But what I've done??

You always here when I need someone to talk to~
When I'm sad, you will force me, to telling you everything, what's going on and so on~
You will protect me, when someone tried to say something bad or mad at me~
You never feel tired hearing my problem, even I'm makes you annoying~
But because of our friendship, you willing to do that, you always care on me~
When my mood was ruin, and I talk fiercely to you, you will say ''sorry'' to me~
I'm so bad, bad friend for you~ TT^TT

I'm sorry for always not be there when you need me~
I'm sorry for always being ego and selfish~
I'm sorry for hurting you, makes you sad, makes you feel annoyed~
I'm sorry because didn't even ask you what happen when you're sad~
I'm sorry because ignoring you when I know you had a problem~
I'm sorry because I'm not be the one who hearing all your problem~
I'm sorry, please forgive me~

I've being attacked by KARMA, I lost all this kind of friendship~
How hurt I am, treating you so badly~
What's wrong with myself??!

I would like to fix our friendship back~
Everyday I'm stalking you, seeing if you're sad, seeing if you're happy,
The moment that I know something bad happen to you, I feel so worried,
But I can't even ask you what happen,
Because there's a lot of people cares on you,
I'm afraid I just added your problem if I'm asking you~

Now, you had a great friend~
They cares on you, will make your bad mood turns to a good one~
I feel so useless, in fact, I guess you didn't even need me anymore~
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Be happy ne? Remember, BE HAPPY !!
You deserved on happiness~ I just want to say that,
I LOVE YOU, friend~
You will always be my friend, everlasting friend~

Mr. Kim~ Where are you? :(

I've no idea what I feel right now~

Why I always have a bad mood when thinking about that ''stranger'', huh??

He's not even mine, but why??

I wish this jealousy can fade away from my real feeling~

Mr. Kim~ Will you gives me a second chance??

I leave you, since I'm in confuse situation on that day~

I leave you on your birthday, since I already decided last year that I'm gonna celebrate your birthday together with you, even in facebook~

<////////3 I know I was a bad chingu for you~ I'm really sorry~

That's not my intent to hurt you, I just being slapped by my ego and selfishness~

I let them wins, and makes you sad~

I hope you didn't become heartless because of me~

My love story was so worst than you, 

That's a bad moment I ever been through, but it's okay~

I already accept it without any little regret~^^''

I hope our love story, being more sweetest and sweetest than other couple!

I didn't mean ''our'' is you and me~ Hahaha, I don't want any people misunderstand it too~

Since, I always remembering you whether on sad or happy moment,

I wish you always be here~

I'm sorry if you think I just want to take a granted on your friendship,

I never mean that~

Trust me, and we will be a greatest friend ever, Mr. Kim ! :)

I miss you, really miss to talk with you~ I guess I have to wait for another month to talk with you^^''

Or maybe a 2, 3 month, or a year~ XD

Take care ne, Mr. Kim !! :') 

Once I said, you're my last love, you will always be my last love, forever~

Are you satisfied, hurting me?

Are you satisfied, betray me?

Are you satisfied, makes me suffer?

Are you satisfied, makes me cry?

Are you satisfied??

Perhaps, if I die,

You will stop hurting me, 

You will stop makes me suffer~

Until when?

I'm afflicted by sadness??

Until when?

I'm afflicted by sufferness??

Until when??

Tell me, until when?!

I hope I could die, before you,

That's how you imagine, 

My life without you~

My biggest scar, my biggest fear,

The moment when I have to lose you for a fourth time,

I've told myself,

"LET ME END MY LIFE"

I can't bear this painful,

I can't hold this tears anymore~

Someone comes, he send a smile to me,

I've no idea, he appear suddenly~

He might be someone I need now~

I hold my breath, breath smoothly,

Taking a deep breath,

Thinking positively~

You're my last love,

Will always be,

I can't fall in love anymore,

'Cause love is painful~

Asdfghjkl !! JuHyun 박주현 James Park *^*

''Don't makes him disappointed~''

''Don't makes him disappointed, he's really hurt because of.............''

A meaningful words~ From a caring brother~

I will never knew what your feeling if there's nobody tell me~ Why you afraid telling me by yourself? I will never harm you~ You know me well, just me, who doesn't understand you well~ Jeongmal mianhaeyo~ You cares on me, you always be here for me~ Even people say a bad things about me, you didn't believe on them, that's because you TRUST me~ I'm really appreciated it~

As what you said to me, our relationship wasn't work at all, since distance keep both of us far away~ 

I thought when people in love, age, distance, its just a number~ But I was wrong~

I believe on you, I trust you, more than you trust me~

I know you got your own reason, you don't want me to get hurt, you don't want me to get pain~

I hope you keep your words, but seeing what you've done behind, 

I'm sorry, I admit, it was....... I suffer inside, you know??

I don't want to blame you, you didn't ever do anything wrong to me~

My expression and my confession previous day, was completely success~

Why?

Because, I had another chance to tell you how much you mean to me,

In my own way~

I had another chance to tell you how much I miss you, I need you, I love you~
I never do that to other boy, you're the first and last boy I've done like that~

Since before, our relationship was collapsed, cause of misunderstanding~

:')

I didn't ever regret it, yet that's gives me a strength~

''Go for something you want, so that you didn't ever regret later on~''

That's a lesson I got~
In the end, you express your true feeling without help from anyone ne?
For the first time, I could see you being honest of yourself~
:') Thank you~

But for you, waiting will just gonna hurting you,

I accept that fact, but here, I wanna tell you honestly,

I will keep waiting on ya~

Even we never met, even we will never face to face each other, 

You will always stay in my heart :')

Can't we be friend like before?

Acting like nothing's happen?

If this is an ending between us, tell me sincerely~

But I know, between us, isn't over yet, right??

Tell me, tell me, I need to know~

Don't said it's over between us~

Jebal~

My buddy, my B.A.P, my mr. GT~

:')

I'm sorry~

I'm really sorry~

I just love you, can't ever want to stop from loving you~

As you said before,
You've been waiting for someone,
and says that she's cute,
I hope between you and her, goes well,
I'm really happy for ya~

Smile always, like on the picture you gave me,
Promise me ne?
Your smile can inspire many people, include me~

:')

♥ My Love, My Boy! Part III ♥

You're near, 

I'm so grateful you're here~

A regretful moment,

When I can't hold our love tightly, before,

Just let it go, un-treasure~

Those smile,

Brighten my morning,

Warmth my night~

I can't imagine my life without you,

I can't imagine my life, losing you,

For a fourth time,

'Cause you....,

A strength of my life~

You're my love,

You're my boy~

Better late than never,

This moment,

I can't hide anymore,

I can't lied anymore,

I'm sorry,

For still loving you,

For still missing you,

For still need you,

For the rest of my life~

I'm may not a perfect one,

I'm may not a pretty one,

I'm may not be the one,

you wish to be destined with,

I hope, you could find your happiness, 

Near close to you,

Comfort you, makes you smile,

Filled your heart with grace of love,

Every single day~

I love you, always loving you,

Never change, never fade away~

Our love,

You and I,

Engraved inside my little heart,

Forever~

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''You're the one who stay in my heart, only you, no one else''

''I love you so much................................''

♥ My Love, My Boy! Part II ♥

I love you,

I love you,

I love you,

Everyday loving you~

You make me smile,

You make me happy,

You make me feel special,

You cares on me,

You appreciated me,

You comfort me when I'm sad,

You wake we up, when I'm down,

You're funny,

So cheerful,

You're the sweetest person, 

I ever met~

You're the one,

My only one,

My last love,

Everlasting love~

Never regret,

Giving all my heart,

To you,

Never regret,

Loving you, missing you,

Every single seconds~

- WILL BE CONTINUED-

This simple poem was creating randomly, 

Comes out from my mind suddenly,

Telling everyone in this world,

How much I love him~

How much I miss him~

I need him because I love him~

 He's my everything ♥

Cute Couple Picture *^*

Asdfghjkl, Lee ByungHun (이병훈) L.Joe *^*

Asdfghjkl, Shin Dong Geun PENIEL 프니엘 ^^*

LOVE? Am I deserved?

''I miss you'' 

Un-lying words, 

A words, that' I can't able to says,

Keep stay pure,

Deeply in my heart~

I miss the way you tease me,

I miss the way you said you missed me,

I miss the way you said you love me~

When I was your special one,

You're the one , I'm always dreaming of,

You're the one, who I want to talk with, no one else,

You're the one, who I would like to share my happiness nor sadness,

You're the one, who I want to give all my heart,

Showering you with my pure love~

I want to be a reason why,

You're smiling,

I want to be a reason why,

You're laughing,

I want to be a reason why,

You're happy,

In your entire life~

If I could turn back time,

I won't makes you sad,

I won't makes you mad,

I won't gives you pain,

I won't gives you sadness~

But, I realized,

I'm just one of un-perfect people,

Who always made a silly mistakes,

Who always like to blaming myself,

Who always feel jealous,

Who always being so sensitive,

Who always being so heartless~

Wishing you were mine once again,

Won't letting you go~

But now, you're far, far from me,

You and I, separate by two different world~

I can't forget the moment you left me,

Tears, comes out, I feel so weak,

Why you didn't bring me along with you?

Why you left me alone here?

Why and why??

''I love you''

''I really love you''

''Please don't leave me''

A words that I hope I got a chance to tell you,

In this temporary world~

Like a Shadow, I'm Just Nothing~

Tears,

Something you can't hide,

Something you can't ask to stop,

Something you can't begged, to never flowing it, no matter what happen~

Tears,

A friend of mine,

Always be here, never want to let me go~

Tears,
A friend of mine,

Always be here, when something' bad comes near~

Tears,

A friend of mine,

Never hurt me,

Instead it relieve my pain~

Like a shadow, I'm just nothing,

Like a shadow, I'm just a dust on their sight,

Like a shadow, I'm being invisible, to everyone~

- END -

He teach me, friendship are more important than relationship~ *sigh* But why I always being fooled in every friendship I build?? Great yeah, appa is right, I need him now :'( But I can't talk with him anymore !!!!!!!! I hate myself because makes him sad beforeTT^TT I'm totally bad girl !! I try to let this feeling go, and didn't want to think negatively, but.....? They're precious to me, they're already like my own sister to me, but why they..?? <///3 I already forgive that girl, even she bash me badly before, but it's okay, cause we both are Muslim, I don't want to save this hatred anymore, I forgives her~ But she~ I know she's more important than me, while me? Just nothing, right?? Thanks for comfort me, and concern on me, you're my real friend :') You're my sister too~ I don't know what should I do right now, it's just complicated for me to handle~ Should I disappear again?? I don't want to be a coward again, I don't want~ *looks down* At least, now I know, I'm just nothing~ Thanks to those ''sis''~ 

Un-lying Love~

His lovely scent of love,

Warmth me, protect me,

He's here,

Anytime, everywhere,

Around me, like always~

For the first time,

I feel so worth in this world~

'Cause he show me,

The true meaning of LOVE~

Appreciation of love,

Un-lying love,

I can't ever forget,

Never ever forget,

For my entire life~

He left before me,

Even that's not one of his choice,

But his destiny,

Already being written~

Even it's hurt,

But I know,

He will never been through on his hard path life, anymore,

No more pain, 

No more complicated life, 

No more tears~

Kelvin oppa,

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Gwiyomi Lyrics Song~

Ildeohagi ileun gwiyomi,

Ideohagi ineun gwiyomi,

Samdeohagi sameun gwiyomi,

Gwigwi gwiyomi gwigwi gwiyomi,

Sadeohagi sad gwiyomi,

Odeohagi odo gwiyomi,

Yukdeohagi yugeun chu chu chu chu chu chu chu gwiyomi nan gwiyomi~

P/S I'm not really sure if this a correct lyrics^^''