Wait or forget?

Some say,

I must get ready to be forgotten,

Some say,

It's time to walk away~

We're miles apart,

I may not get a chance,

To hold your hand,

I may not get a chance,

To walk with you,

I may not get a chance,

To cheer you up,

Cares on you, when you get sick~

When I'm on my horrible day,

You comes with your text,

Makes my whole day turns brighter,

Maybe in distance,

We're far apart,

But in my heart,

I ain't denying,

That you still, stay inside~

Time passes through my life,

Confusing my mind,

Either to wait or forget,

I have a life to live,

But I hope,

You're more deserving better,

Than someone else~

Nothing more hurt than this.

I stopped,

From doing,
Everything I used to do~

Since before,

I cares on you,

Your problem is mine,

Wanna be that person,
That can makes your smile,

Wanna be that person,
That can makes you feel pleasant,

Even you keep mentioning her name,
In our conversation,

Even you keep asking me about her, 

Keep asking me to tell you,
More details about her,

I will just keep smiling for you~

Yes, she is pretty,

Yes, she is kind, 

Yes, she is the best girl in this world,

but unfortunately, yes,

This ugly girl,
 Is one of her best friend~

You're too much,
Going too far, 

and took this friendship for granted,

Nothing more hurt than this,

Why I'm always be in this situation?

Can't you able to see me?

Are you consider myself as invisible?

Are you consider myself as heartless?

And you know what?

Tears is my best friend for now,

Seldom being here when I'm happy,

But it always be in here when I'm sad,
It comes every day in my life,

It knows how,
Makes me feel calm,

Cause this eyes would slowly being closed, 

Seems like it want me to rest, 

Rest from this pain, rest from this scar~

Maybe I should back to the old me,

No one ever realized, I'm exist,

Cause I'm living on my own world, alone~

I was trapped in a love with one dead side.

You're incapable loving me back,

My eyes started to filled up with tears,

Being in love with you,

I had no control over it,

If I knew this is not the sort of things that might ends well,

I will never let myself get involved~

Took a hardest strength to breath,

Wondering why it all went wrong,

Keeps it all inside,

On a little pieces of my broken heart~

You didn't mean to hurt me, but you did,

There's no point blaming you,

'Cause I choose to love you, at first~

I lost you once, it might happen again,

Please let this nightmares go away from me,

I should paint again a smile on my face,

And pretend to be happy, 

Pretend to be strong,

Pretend to act like, "I'm fine, don't worry about me."

We do mistakes, and we learn from it,

And I think I deserved got it,

As long as my suffer,

Could be replaced a happiness in your life~

I was trapped in a love with one dead side,

It's not easy,

It's hard, truly hard,

To move on~

Life is pain, Life is happiness

I saw you in my eyes,

But it wasn't me,

Who's stay completely in your heart~

I have my own stories, you had your own,

You felt the love, same with me,

You felt the pain, same with me,

You felt sad, same with me,

Cause's we're human,

But you're a boy, 

While I am a girl~

You keep holding back the pain from the past,

Avoiding opportunities,

To let someone cure it, with a smile,

Letting go,

Someone who genuinely cares on you,

When you face any problems~

Soon or later, you will realized,

It's never gonna be back,

On where it begin~

We keep growing up and learning,

Life is pain, life is happiness,

The both would teaches you, how life was~

"Be happy."

That's my last wishes,

Before saying a "Goodbye."

YES or NO?

Looking far, 

Far away outside the window,

Even how much noisy in here,

I can't hear anything, except your voice,

I can't remember anything, except your words,

I can't imagine anything,

except, "What your answer would be?"

"YES or NO?"

Looking at the same sky,

Looking at the same moon,

I breathe in and out,

Whispering your name in silence~

Living in the country called 'Land Below The Wind',

A warmth breeze, touched my cheek,

I close my eyes for a while,

Heart is beating, nervously,

I'm here,

Will keep waiting for you, everyday,

Patiently~

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Officially updated on 28 August 2014 

Thank you 'brother'

I'm just another girl, with a simple style,

Covered-hair,

Together with floral pins on my hijab,

But you showing me no regrets,

Ever knowing me once in your life~

During my difficult time,

The most person I remember is you,

You're different from others,

You give me something, that would make me glad~

We're all grown up now,

Silly conversation, have only gotten us closer,

I'm grateful,

Has knew someone as nice as you~

For being my brother, 'THANK YOU',

'Cause of you, I feel no stress,

I hope you and I, always keep in touch,

Hoping our friendship will be last, forever~

"The right person will come someday."

You left once, you might leave again,

I took my breath away, deeply sighed,

I keep waiting and waiting,

Waiting for you to come near,

But, you repay back with nothing~

Loneliness, is a worst gift from you,

I got slapped by reality, for many times,

'Cause never be able to call you as mine,

I let myself getting hurt,

That I thought I deserved on it,

Nobody even cares,

Nobody even noticed,

Why am I such a fool?

"The right person will come someday."

I wonder if it was a truth,

My heart was torn apart,

I wonder if I got that chance,

To meet that someone,

Whom is able to repair my broken side back to usual~