You're my B.A.P buddy~

I have no idea what should I say right now,

You still in operation room, and I'm still here, waiting for you to wake up,

I know you will fighting on it~

I'm crying when remember what I've done to you, but my jealousy makes me blind,

I hurt you, I'm the reason why I makes you crying,

I know there's a reason behind it, but ''that'' moment, makes me start stop talking with you~

I feel hurt seeing you with other girl~ I just can stalk you~ I just can crying alone~

No one can I talk about~ I'm afraid I will pissed them off~ 

I'm hiding a tears, especially from my mom~

I'm crying every night, why this kind of situation must happen between us~

I didn't even attack you, did I?? Or you mean, attack you through all my FB post??

I'm so selfish~ I've no idea, is there any still enough time for me, to say ''SORRY''?

Please wake up~

I'm so sorry, I can't able to stop this feeling~

You're my last love, and I won't never fall in love again, if its wasn't you~

I won't never attack you again, I just want to be your buddy back~

Even........................ You might not accept me any longer yet, as your buddy~

Your happiness............ I wish you got it as soon as possible~

I ..................................... L.O.V.E YOU...........

You ask me to stop blaming myself,
If you're not wake up, I will keep blaming myself~
B.A.P............ one shot, one chance! 

I'm a bad friend for you~

I've never thought this kind of situation will hitted me, until makes me drowning in sadness~ Last year, I met with a lot of kind friend, we build tight friendship~ But what I've done??

You always here when I need someone to talk to~
When I'm sad, you will force me, to telling you everything, what's going on and so on~
You will protect me, when someone tried to say something bad or mad at me~
You never feel tired hearing my problem, even I'm makes you annoying~
But because of our friendship, you willing to do that, you always care on me~
When my mood was ruin, and I talk fiercely to you, you will say ''sorry'' to me~
I'm so bad, bad friend for you~ TT^TT

I'm sorry for always not be there when you need me~
I'm sorry for always being ego and selfish~
I'm sorry for hurting you, makes you sad, makes you feel annoyed~
I'm sorry because didn't even ask you what happen when you're sad~
I'm sorry because ignoring you when I know you had a problem~
I'm sorry because I'm not be the one who hearing all your problem~
I'm sorry, please forgive me~

I've being attacked by KARMA, I lost all this kind of friendship~
How hurt I am, treating you so badly~
What's wrong with myself??!

I would like to fix our friendship back~
Everyday I'm stalking you, seeing if you're sad, seeing if you're happy,
The moment that I know something bad happen to you, I feel so worried,
But I can't even ask you what happen,
Because there's a lot of people cares on you,
I'm afraid I just added your problem if I'm asking you~

Now, you had a great friend~
They cares on you, will make your bad mood turns to a good one~
I feel so useless, in fact, I guess you didn't even need me anymore~
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Be happy ne? Remember, BE HAPPY !!
You deserved on happiness~ I just want to say that,
I LOVE YOU, friend~
You will always be my friend, everlasting friend~

Mr. Kim~ Where are you? :(

I've no idea what I feel right now~

Why I always have a bad mood when thinking about that ''stranger'', huh??

He's not even mine, but why??

I wish this jealousy can fade away from my real feeling~

Mr. Kim~ Will you gives me a second chance??

I leave you, since I'm in confuse situation on that day~

I leave you on your birthday, since I already decided last year that I'm gonna celebrate your birthday together with you, even in facebook~

<////////3 I know I was a bad chingu for you~ I'm really sorry~

That's not my intent to hurt you, I just being slapped by my ego and selfishness~

I let them wins, and makes you sad~

I hope you didn't become heartless because of me~

My love story was so worst than you, 

That's a bad moment I ever been through, but it's okay~

I already accept it without any little regret~^^''

I hope our love story, being more sweetest and sweetest than other couple!

I didn't mean ''our'' is you and me~ Hahaha, I don't want any people misunderstand it too~

Since, I always remembering you whether on sad or happy moment,

I wish you always be here~

I'm sorry if you think I just want to take a granted on your friendship,

I never mean that~

Trust me, and we will be a greatest friend ever, Mr. Kim ! :)

I miss you, really miss to talk with you~ I guess I have to wait for another month to talk with you^^''

Or maybe a 2, 3 month, or a year~ XD

Take care ne, Mr. Kim !! :') 

Once I said, you're my last love, you will always be my last love, forever~

Are you satisfied, hurting me?

Are you satisfied, betray me?

Are you satisfied, makes me suffer?

Are you satisfied, makes me cry?

Are you satisfied??

Perhaps, if I die,

You will stop hurting me, 

You will stop makes me suffer~

Until when?

I'm afflicted by sadness??

Until when?

I'm afflicted by sufferness??

Until when??

Tell me, until when?!

I hope I could die, before you,

That's how you imagine, 

My life without you~

My biggest scar, my biggest fear,

The moment when I have to lose you for a fourth time,

I've told myself,

"LET ME END MY LIFE"

I can't bear this painful,

I can't hold this tears anymore~

Someone comes, he send a smile to me,

I've no idea, he appear suddenly~

He might be someone I need now~

I hold my breath, breath smoothly,

Taking a deep breath,

Thinking positively~

You're my last love,

Will always be,

I can't fall in love anymore,

'Cause love is painful~

Asdfghjkl !! JuHyun 박주현 James Park *^*

''Don't makes him disappointed~''

''Don't makes him disappointed, he's really hurt because of.............''

A meaningful words~ From a caring brother~

I will never knew what your feeling if there's nobody tell me~ Why you afraid telling me by yourself? I will never harm you~ You know me well, just me, who doesn't understand you well~ Jeongmal mianhaeyo~ You cares on me, you always be here for me~ Even people say a bad things about me, you didn't believe on them, that's because you TRUST me~ I'm really appreciated it~

As what you said to me, our relationship wasn't work at all, since distance keep both of us far away~ 

I thought when people in love, age, distance, its just a number~ But I was wrong~

I believe on you, I trust you, more than you trust me~

I know you got your own reason, you don't want me to get hurt, you don't want me to get pain~

I hope you keep your words, but seeing what you've done behind, 

I'm sorry, I admit, it was....... I suffer inside, you know??

I don't want to blame you, you didn't ever do anything wrong to me~

My expression and my confession previous day, was completely success~

Why?

Because, I had another chance to tell you how much you mean to me,

In my own way~

I had another chance to tell you how much I miss you, I need you, I love you~
I never do that to other boy, you're the first and last boy I've done like that~

Since before, our relationship was collapsed, cause of misunderstanding~

:')

I didn't ever regret it, yet that's gives me a strength~

''Go for something you want, so that you didn't ever regret later on~''

That's a lesson I got~
In the end, you express your true feeling without help from anyone ne?
For the first time, I could see you being honest of yourself~
:') Thank you~

But for you, waiting will just gonna hurting you,

I accept that fact, but here, I wanna tell you honestly,

I will keep waiting on ya~

Even we never met, even we will never face to face each other, 

You will always stay in my heart :')

Can't we be friend like before?

Acting like nothing's happen?

If this is an ending between us, tell me sincerely~

But I know, between us, isn't over yet, right??

Tell me, tell me, I need to know~

Don't said it's over between us~

Jebal~

My buddy, my B.A.P, my mr. GT~

:')

I'm sorry~

I'm really sorry~

I just love you, can't ever want to stop from loving you~

As you said before,
You've been waiting for someone,
and says that she's cute,
I hope between you and her, goes well,
I'm really happy for ya~

Smile always, like on the picture you gave me,
Promise me ne?
Your smile can inspire many people, include me~

:')

♥ My Love, My Boy! Part III ♥

You're near, 

I'm so grateful you're here~

A regretful moment,

When I can't hold our love tightly, before,

Just let it go, un-treasure~

Those smile,

Brighten my morning,

Warmth my night~

I can't imagine my life without you,

I can't imagine my life, losing you,

For a fourth time,

'Cause you....,

A strength of my life~

You're my love,

You're my boy~

Better late than never,

This moment,

I can't hide anymore,

I can't lied anymore,

I'm sorry,

For still loving you,

For still missing you,

For still need you,

For the rest of my life~

I'm may not a perfect one,

I'm may not a pretty one,

I'm may not be the one,

you wish to be destined with,

I hope, you could find your happiness, 

Near close to you,

Comfort you, makes you smile,

Filled your heart with grace of love,

Every single day~

I love you, always loving you,

Never change, never fade away~

Our love,

You and I,

Engraved inside my little heart,

Forever~

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''You're the one who stay in my heart, only you, no one else''

''I love you so much................................''