"If it destined..."

Did you left, without knowing,

you were loved?

Did you left, without knowing,

you were needed?

I miss those times, 

Those time, I weren't in love with you,

Those time, I could feel no jealousy, when you're with somebody else,

Those time, where we could tease each other, playfully,

No hurting, no arguments~

If I knew it from the first place,

I wouldn't let myself falling,

Why this mistakes, left me suffering?

Cause me to lose everything~

As time goes by,

I began to realized,

Some things has changed.

I'm wondering,
Will this tears stop flowing?
Will this heart stop hurting?

This story haven't over yet,

Please come back,

Give me a chance,

Changing this misery, into memorable,

Closing the chapter of pain,

Never re-read again.

I had a faith inside,

"You'll come back, you'll come back"

But if it destined, you weren't,

I'll never stop praying,
Wishing you in happiness.

Endlessly Sadness

Sadness,

Engulfs her,

She shut herself down,
Crying all her heart out.

Nothing was fine,

She tried harder to climb up,

Looking for some light, 

Cure her own aches, endure all her darkness,

To reflects happiness.

There's unseen hand, 

Trying to reach her out,

Helping her from drowning on endless ocean of sadness.

Her feeling, seemingly, unexplainable,
She was bubbly outside, silently inside,

She shed her own tears,
Without no one knows,

Absorbing passion,

To stand up stronger,

For the next day.

Hurtful Ending

Selfish, reflection of  myself,

Keep repeating the same mistakes,

Lacks of honesty,

Lacks of loyalty,

Lacks of priority.

Love, memories that we share together,

I dream, dream of our destiny,

Would end beautifully.

Destiny turns fantasy,

Expectation, beyond my imagination,

It's going to end,

Would you stop it?
Would you fight for it?

Believe for something unreal,

Hurtful truth, my heart cracks,

There's a lot of countless pieces of pain,

Who feels hurt?

You and me, definitely.

Because the wound inside, has been etched in our heart,

Hard to be heal.

Rule your own world.

My world getting dull.

Full of dust, full of time waste.

Try to be positive, but it change negative.

Had no idea what lies ahead soon.

Will it be better?

Or getting more worst?

Looking for something,

That could change everything,

I lost my weapon to fight for it,

I'm not strong enough to stand up.

"Give up"?

That's not an easy answer.

It's not the right time yet.

I want to be free,

I want to be who I am,

I want to make people happy,

Will I be able to achieve it?

My journey,

May not as good as them,

My journey,

May not be as brighter as them,

My journey,

May not be lucky like them,

But my journey,

Make me earn something precious,

Learn something new.

About life.

Forget about criticism,

Forget about insulation,

They have a different story than you,

You are living in your own little world,

No one would lead the best,

Except you.

"Worthless, Heartless"

This is not the path that I chose,

This is not the ending that I wish to be,

You, and me, looking at the same sky,

Yet, distance make us far.

Recall back our past memories,

Bring too much tears, through a veil of my eyes,

If only, I could turn back  time.

Back then, we're too close,

Build a jealousy from certain people,

I cling, spoiled too much,

I cares, and loved too much,

Yet, I crashed too much,

This heart, broken into pieces.

Worthless, heartless,

Describe myself perfectly in two words,

I can't be back to the old me,

Help me, help me,

Help me out, from this selfishness.

Candy Love

A love with boundaries,

I breathed a sighed,

He, afar,

Far away my vision.

I trust too much,

You broke too fast,

I put a high hopes,

You drop me down.

The way you walk,

The way you laugh,

The way you kiss,

I had no idea with,

It's just a kindness?

That you spread over?

Misconception with friendship,

I fell under your candy love spell,

Stop joking around,

I might fell more.

I wish you could be the one,

The only one for me,

But it's beyond my expectation,

Since you're not the only one for me,

As your sweet words, touched my heart,

No one else, moved me, like you,

I fell for you all over again.

You Leave Me

Those dazed stare,

Unveil our past memories,

Can't put into words.

I drown myself,

Under my own little world,

Seems can't reach out,

For a solution,

You block my vision, to see you,

You throw my broken pieces, push me away,

Why?

Without any words, you left me behind.

Not even once,

You try to figure out of me,

Please awaken me,

I feel exhausted, closing my eyes,

Seeing too much lies over the truth.